Mastering the Art of Teen Angst

April 19, 2008 - feeling like my old self again

March 21, 2008. Good Friday.

01.
I'm not sure where to start. It always feels so strange to blog again after not doing it regularly. My life has been incredibly boring and unsatisfying, consisting of work, essay writing, periodic mental breakdowns, frustrated anger -- and I came to tell you that I'm feeling great again. How cliche, it being spring and all that, but I do feel new like some leaf uncurling at the smell of rain and the light of dawn. Perhaps it's the combination of the good weather, the end of the school year, and feeling satisfied with my exams (I've written three so far, three more to go and I'm going to New York City [hopefully]).

02.
I may be falling in love again. Except, it's with somebody I've never met and it's been making me feel absolutely ridiculous and silly. I'm not one to look down at these sorts of things, two of my friends at work found their boyfriends online - and they're both very sweet and normal guys - it never seemed like the sort of thing that'd work with me. He doesn't even live closeby and I don't even know if we will ever meet or if I want to meet him at all. But he's...interesting. Okay, I think he's a bit of a weirdo. The guy's main source of nutrition is from vitamin pills and health supplements, because he refuses to eat vegetables unless it's like tomatoes on a pizza. He's also never eaten rice or nutella and despises going out in the sun. That is strange, right? [Er, from my description it sounds like he's some palid fat lives in his mother's basement game nerd - he's not, he's just one out of the four....] But I already have 2 archived msn conversation logs saved. We'll see what happens. I'm not too concerned about it.

03.
I'm absolutely in love with whole living magazines, especially body + soul. Their current April issue is just gorgeous and all about going green, which is what I'm going to try to do this summer. My list of things to do?

[x] Stop using plastic bags
[x] Unplug laptop + electrical gadgets at night
[x] Recycle and/or find creative ways to reuse papers

04.
I've finally started writing down my Life List. I'm going to break it down and reorganize it, but here's a peak:

[x] Watch the Northern Lights
[x] Go Zorbing in New Zealand
[x] Learn a third language
[x] Improve my writing
[x] Go scuba diving
[x] Visit all Canadian provinces and territories, mainly Newfoundland & Labrador
[x] Publish a photobook
[x] Read 100 "Classics"
[x] Visit the pyramids on all continents [Asia, Americas, Africa]
[x] Read the whole of Remembrance of Things Past by Proust
[x] Attend a Gay Pride parade
[x] Read 2+ books a month

05.
I've been rejected by two co-op job posters. One didn't even interview me. Right now, I'm starting to get nervous and bitter about the whole situation. Throughout the past three months it's been either the jobs that I want are too far away, requiring financial sacrifice on my part, or they're looking for 'graduate' students with considerable amount of experience - which I don't have. In retrospect, perhaps I should have just applied to any job, but I didn't want to run the risk of getting one that I didn't want at all and spend my summer miserably dragging myself out of bed day after day and feeling like a zombie.

Right now two new job postings have opened up. [1] Education Assistant for a museum summer camp and [2] Project Assistant for mural project by Mural Routes. I'm really excited for [2] though. The pay isn't great, but it sounds really fun, something that I would get excited waking up for every day. Hopefully I won't get a lot of competition, since it's the end of the school year and by now most people should have found their co-op placements. I'm sending my resume and coverletter today.

April 20, 2008 - Untitled Comment

Posted by sic

"I may be falling in love again. Except, it's with somebody I've never met and it's been making me feel absolutely ridiculous and silly."

I'm flattered and all, but... I don't think the wife would approve. Or maybe she would, who knows?

"The guy's main source of nutrition is from vitamin pills and health supplements,"

Oh... so it's not me... well okay then...

My nephew goes through the same woes with the whole co-op job thing, and even when he thinks he's got a job in a field close to what he wants, it still ends up pretty disappointing, Good luck.

Oh, and it's good to see you around again.

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April 21, 2008 - Untitled Comment

Posted by morose

"'m flattered and all, but... I don't think the wife would approve. Or maybe she would, who knows?"

*rolls eyes* I've made it a point to not fall in love with married men, sir!

Awww, tell your nephew that he is not alone! There are many other students suffering as well ;(

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